The Search for Authentic Self
Snippets of the Toltec Teachings have appeared in a variety of writings lately.. none of which grabbed my attention to look further.. until just recently. As I skimmed the first few paragraphs.. I felt as though the author had been remote viewing my Life. It's fascinating to see Ancient Wisdom embrace our Presence.
The Authentic Self has not donned the Human wraps of Ego... the Reflections of Others perception of our Presense~Pretense.
Presense is the Measure of Sensory Perception.. great or small proportionate to achieve Life Purpose.
Pretense is the 'Role'.. the Physical form we occupy to achieve Life Purpose.. PRE = Before Birth TENSE = the tension created by Duality's structure.. Polarity.. Action ~ Re-Action.. to hold Manifested Matter in place.
All Beings at birth arrive in Divine Innocence. Humans will linger in Innocence the length of Time that serves Life Purpose. But ultimately.. the layers of Ego cover the Authentic Self obscuring the connection to the degree of appropriateness for each individual.
To remain in Divine Innocence is to remain cognizant of the Authentic Self... the Stream of Resonance called 'Knowing'.
My childhood brilliantly provided the perfect atmosphere to nurture and encourage the 'Knowing Dreamer'... my Authentic Self. I remained in my Stream of Resonance.. my 'Knowing' until a Near Death Experience at 15.
The NDE enabled my Ego Presense ~ Pretense to participate in Life.. in Reality Duality. Authentic Self would become 'Obedient' to Ego pressures and override my 'Knowing'.. unless it was appropriate for my 'Knowing' to step in and override Ego.
In the late 70's the Ego Onion appeared in my Life.. inviting me to begin peeling the layers... Timed perfectly with the avalanche of Metaphysical awakenings sweeping the Minds of Spiritual Seekers. By mid-80's it was Time to disrobe Ego and return to Authentic Self. I left all that I had Known in my Life of 43 years.
This Path of reclaiming Authenticity traced to Taos, New Mexico.. a Power Mecca for Enlightenment. Life was the 'Flip' side of the Paradox.. designed to bring Real Time Clarity by Living it's Truth.
In Deed.. it called upon Authentic Self for Survival.
There have been many 'Head Scratching' moments. Not only did I have to Face my Truth.. I had to Own It.. which for my Self meant Loving my Monsters.. seeing how cleverly I created the perfect situations to 'Push Me'.. the Taurus Bull and get on with the Path of Purpose. Once I figured out the interplay of Duality.. it expanded comprehension exponentially.
It amazes me how well prepared I was for the Journey.. a long list of 'Victimizations' that fueled the anger that charged the Bull to 'Move On'... suddenly transformed into the 'Great Ah Ha'... counter balancing certain situations with Life threatening implications.
This is one of those 'Realizations'.. that gives Chills of Knowing.. most satisfying.. to say the least.
As for "...the stories one made for one's Life.".... every moment of Now.. is delicately Balanced with All That Is.. on Earth... the Universe and Beyond.
Feeling the full strength of Emotions necessary to Catalyze the action fueling this Path of Discovering Authentic Self can find your Self Waking in Turbulent Sees.
A Balancing THOHT to maintain ballast... every thing expressed.. exchanged.. enacted with another is the Gift of Opportunity to experience the full Measure of Emotion.
It is the Way of the Dance with Light and Dark.
Follow Your Heart
Patturns
posted by Patturns at 10:40 AM
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